Sep 27, 11:45 AM

Search for Purpose.

They say that a Tourist doesn’t know where they have been and a traveler doesn’t know where they are going. For me I felt like I was slowly making the transition between being a tourist and a traveler. Where was I going… I didn’t know. All I had was my intention and a sense of purpose. I was on a mission to find my Teacher and I was prepared to go anywhere and do anything. My purpose was to learn so that I may share that wisdom with others and perhaps if I learnt well enough and through dedication and hard work, tireless effort I may make such an impact on them that they may go on to teach others and so on and so on, a some what idealistic dream but it was all that I wanted to do. My soul purpose you might say.

So I had interviews with Abbots of Monasteries and Lamas of various Traditions. I was looking for the most qualified Teacher I could find and at the same time I knew nothing of what I was looking for. I had no way to tell a good teacher from a not so good teacher. No way to know a fake or phony, Perhaps if they had light shining from there eyes or could tell me who I was in my former life and what I was looking for… but no, none of that was likely to happen.
Here I was the blind leading myself along a road at night trying to find my way.
Reminds me of Shantideva a great India Yogi and Scholar that I was to learn about later in my studies, He had a most marvelous saying, the kind of thing you need to hear at time like this.
He would say something along the lines of:

It is like your walking through the hills in the middle of the night, lost trying to find your way. And then a flash of lightening lights up the nights sky and it all becomes clear just for a few moments so that you can get your bearings once again and continue upon your way.

I think in moments when I have been looking for an answer or for a reason to go on I am lucky cause I know that lightening comes, sooner or later if you just stay put and wait it will come.

~ enjoy

This was published in the book –
On Purpose Towards – a more meaningful life, selections by Margaret Gee.
I was asked to write something… a page or so about what I related to this subject. This is what I wrote.
Available on New Holland isbn 1741101433